Woman who lost baby, mother in mudslide says she won't give up

ARLINGTON, Wash. -- Natasha Huestis lost her mother and her baby in the slide and is dealing with the unthinkable right now.

Saturday began with one of those mundane details of everyday existence. Natasha's mother, Christina Jefferds, would watch her little 4-month-old daughter Sanoah Hestes while Natasha went to work.

And then the earth moved, and both Christina and Sanoah were swallowed up by the cold indifference of nature's whims. Their bodies were found 10 feet from one another by volunteers poking poles into the 5-million cubic yards of devastation.

"You could never imagine this happening to anyone," Natasha said.

But Natasha says she's feeling strong right now.

"And I feel like that because of my mom," she said.

She was asked if it's struck her how unfair it was.

"Yeah. I wish I could bargain with someone, and make a deal," she said.

Natasha is now left behind without her baby. Sanoah will be forever frozen in her mother's mind as she was.

"My little baby Snowy. I wish I would have had more time with her because you just look at her and she smiles at you," Natasha said. "She's precious. She meant the world."

How do you put into words what it's like to lose your mother and your daughter? Your past and your future?

"It's too easy for someone to sink into a hole and not want to get out of it," Natasha said. "My mom would never want me to live my life that way. Never."

In the garage of Jan Schuette, a friend of the family, is a gut-wrenching collection of things found near baby Sanoah and Christina: Muddy photos -- including one of Natasha and her mother, a little angel, a Seahawks hat, silverware, trophies from better times -- the stuff of life. Inside, the baby's stuffed toys, lovingly cleaned, are left out to dry.

These are the remains of Natasha's home, the shreds of one woman's life. But Natasha is not giving up.

"It's not over and there's so many good things to come," Natasha said. "There are."